gilia_mimosa

K, so I had a studio concert yesterday, the first time I've sung in front of an audience pretty much ever. I sang "Cabaret", I was hella nervous, and the tempo put me off slightly. A and P, my singing teacher both told me I did well, but I know I can do it better. I managed to 'act' it though, which was an achievement. It probably was a mistake to sing a piece that sat in my very lowest register as my nerves played havoc with my lower register. But I did it, and it's done and overall I'm rather proud of myself.
I came 'off stage' and just started crying. It was bad. :) But, then I quite buzzed and now I want to do it all again.

http://news.ninemsn.com.au/world/1064917/transsexual-put-kids-in-cages-fed-them-dog-food

The story's horrific and I feel for the kids, but I find myself wishing the writers would just get their damn pronouns straight. Kind of says a lot about my priorities, yes?

Money's a little tight ATM, I put a scratch on A's car on Tuesday. I managed the scrape the back passenger door along a pole at a shopping centre carpark. Yeah, I know. I've offered to pay for it, but as it'll involve some panel beating, it'll probably run into $1000 or thereabouts. A's trying to be nice to me and offering to just get the the paint fixed, but I know he wants his car back the way it was.

Largely because I have nothing interesting to say. But on my weightloss- I joined a bona fide gym last week and today I got my very own program set up for me. It is PAINFUL! but that's what we need to shift some of the sguidyness :) I'm hoping by years end to be done to around 60kg, which is a loss of 24kg. I'm also have troubles with my diet, though. See, I split my time between my house (where I officially live, with my mum) and A's house. It's hard for me to stick to a diet of any description when I'm living like this, so I'm trying to eat healthy when I can. I'm hoping to move out before too much longer, basically when A can get himself a full-time job. Then I can probably try an actual, bona fide diet to go with my bona fide gym

Height: 161 cm

Weight: 83 kg

My plan is to loose around 20 kgs before school goes back in February- including 10 kgs by my friend's wedding in January. It's not long, but I think if I aim for a kilo a week, we'll be right :)

My plan is to limit my fast food to 2-3 times a week, for now and to have a healthy breakfast every day- those are my two biggest weak spots. I'd like to learn to cook more, so I've started making dinner for A every Sunday night- I've already gotten a handful of new, yummy and healthy recipes for the cook book.

Activity-wise, my plan is to go to Curves/ go for a walk three times a week and get on Wii Fit the other days :)

I've already lost five kilos over the last month or so, so we're going swimmingly.

Nothing much going on right now. Finished uni classes yesterday and now just have study and a few last pieces of assessment. A. is fabulous as ever, and looking for a full time job for himself so we can hopefully move out into our place. I'm looking forward to working more, earning more, getting my very own car and some more independence. I'm also looking forward to to getting rid of my cough, which I think has taken on bronchitis- type tendencies. Next year I'm dropping down to one university course, the last one for my Italian major and then out into the big wide world. Afterwards, I'll be heading back to uni for my teaching degree. I'm looking forward to having more time the things I like to do (reading, writing, singing) and the things I'd like to do (Warhammer, moar video games.)

And that's my contribution to LJ-land for today

Except not.

I'm so fucking exhausted, but I can't get to sleep. I flew home today from Canberra- took me the greater part of three hours to get here and yet I can't go to sleep? Why? Choir, that's why. I'm involved in my university choir as the librarian as well as being involved in organising a national university choir event as the concert manager. Why? Because I'm clearly insane, that's why.

ATM, my main stressor is the score for this semester. I have the music (at last) but now it's a matter of getting it printed, with page numbers. I cannot for the life of me decide how to accomplish this. I just can't. Exhaustion, remember? I'm just hoping that faffing about on the internet will wear me out enough so that I can crawl back into bed with A. and my new polar bear and just sleep.

I'm sorry to hear that your son is being bullied, though glad to know he's been standing up for himself. However, would it have killed you to take five seconds out of your oh-so-important phone call on your fancy-pants iPhone to pay attention to me as I'm trying to help you? Would it really?

Next time I'm jacking the price of something up $10 just to see of you notice.

I'm a little upset now. It's been days since I found out, but still. I recently discovered that a friend of mine came to Canberra for a visit and she didn't tell me. This particular friend was a rock for me during a difficult time last year and she blew into town and straight back out again. I haven't actually heard from her for months. Sometimes it seems like she's too sophisticated and grown-up for me. Maybe. I don't know.

Now a work-related rant:
Dear Un-buttoned Flannel Shirt Man:
    You confused me. The shirt was odd and you pasty, swollen white belly was delish, thanks very much but that wasn't the confusing part. Nor was it when you tried to give me a gift card that for our competitors- that happens a fair bit and it's no biggy. You had no other form of payment so I cancelled the order. You asked where the ATM is and it wasn't until later, after you'd told me you'd get some money from your car that it occurred to me that you'd tried to get cash out on a gift card. And that was the confusing part. Why didn't you go to our competitors' store and use your gift card there- I promise it's still good.

So I'm in A's bed, off sick from work. I'm watching Frasier and waiting for A to return from work with some food. Basically I'm bored out of my mind as uni finished for the year almost a fornight ago. I started this LJ largely becuase I could :)

Hoping you all have a great day.